updates, a rant

subject: my toe
feeling better ... cherry juice seems to be the ticket

subject: DDR progress
at the moment i can actually get through most tracks on standard, but i don't think i'm even going to try heavy. i'll leave that for hyper 11 year olds.

subject: radio show

on now ... tracklist is:
1. Groovefire - Earthquake (Dan Sanders Remix) [Little Mountain]
2. Chris Micali - Juice [Vapour]
3. Cass - Giant (Red Five Mix) [Sabotage]
4. The MFA - Two Billion Year Journey [Stomp]
5. Rhythm Code - Mothers Pride (Original Mix) [Dirty Blue]
6. Primmi - Peacemaker [Looq]
7. Christian Cambas - Flight 403 (Paul Rogers Remix) [Swift]
8. I.B. - Love & Religion (Clubbervision Remix) [Looq]
9. Parallel Sound - The Massive [Unsigned]

and guest is Rene Amesz ... one of my favorite producers.

http://www.protonradio.com/show.php?showid=83

subject: skygod

the last vestiges of any type of skygod notion seem to have recently vacated my brain. i know i've mentioned this before, and it's not like i ever believed in any kind of white beard guy or heaven and hell, etc. ... but i did have sort of vestigial notions about judgement, afterlife, and universal destiny knocking up there. all that crap has been peeled away and i'm left with the singular idea of evolution as the singular cosmic creative force (in other words Creation = Evolution).

note: this blog entry represents only my own personal philosophical and quasi-philosophical musings, and has nothing to do with what Spesh might think, or with the company position of Loöq Records or Qoöl ;-)

what's interesting to me is the emotional change i've experienced from surrendering totally to the idea that a non-sentient (dumb) process has created (or, more accurately, generated) the universe, in essence that nobody is minding the store, there is no eye in the sky, there is no grand listmaker, there is no database of good and evil deeds, there is only one tricked out mother of an algorithm unfolding, manifesting as networks on top of networks, all of us (and our cells, our ideas, all of our constituent parts, sub-parts, and meta-parts) as network nodes, agents, with trajectories, and sometimes with sentience and thus free-will/intention/consciousness. and that's where the fun is, of course, consciousness, but consciousness is not an evolutionary destination or endpoint or goal, it's just another tricked-out pimp-my-ride style evolutionary tool that has allowed genes to make more copies of themselves, but at the same time consciousness has created another network level (memetics), another reality level that is just as real (or unreal) as physical reality.

but i digress.

emotional change ... it's a sense of freedom ... and i'm not talking about a desire to act unethically or act crazy or be a dick or anything that fundamentalists might wring their hands over when thinking or talking about atheism ... it's just a sense of ultimate responsibility for what happens, and with that sense of responsibility comes an equal sense of empowerment, and thus freedom. i, and we, are responsible for each other, and for the future of civilization. there will be no judgement day, and no deus ex machina. there will simply be our actions and the consequences of those actions.

karma ... i know i've said this before but the idea of karma is a concept created to let high caste brahmins assuage their guilt at being richer and more fortunate than the untouchables (a logical argument based on the false premise that if you are healthy/wealthy/good-looking/etc., you must have done something good in a previous life to deserve it) ... it's not the same idea as sin but it serves a similar function ... keep people in line and give them a context to understand bad shit that happens to them.

unfortunately bad shit happens to good people who don't deserve it, and selfish/greedy/violent/tyrannical people get away with stuff all the time without being punished. when they are punished, it's always meted out by other human beings, never by a skygod. fortunately most of us our sufficiently motivated to be good to each other by our own sense that being good feels good, that others will like us better if they notice us being good, and that even if our conscience totally fails us, our peer group will probably disown us if we do something too awful. so for the most part we're good to each other, with or without the threat of karmic retribution or skygod punishment (lightening or hell, take your pick).

i seem to have ranted. ahem, excuse me.

i guess the reason i'm thinking about this is because i've been watching revelations (about the end of the world, good/god vs. evil/satan), which is *not* a good TV show but i'm finding it kind of fascinating, like watching a car wreck in slow motion. the attempts to mix religion and science are both cringe and laugh inducing (ultrasound of a demon baby with horns, etc.). scarily, i think that if george bush were watching this show he would be taking it all literally.